Deliberate Living

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about deliberate living — about making conscious decisions about what I want my life to be and being aware of how my actions fit with that image in every moment. I’m very aware that I spend much of my time living inattentively at best, but to live more deliberately requires not only a nearly constant concerted effort, but also an awareness of what I want out of my life to a degree that I don’t currently have. Now that I’m unemployed I have, at least in theory, more decisions to make about how I spend my time than I have had in a long time, and it’s becoming increasingly important to me to get as much life as possible out of each second of the day. Sometimes that means just closing my eyes and enjoying the stillness or even playing a game of computer solitaire, but more it sinks in that I don’t have to get in my car and go to work, the less interested I am in doing nothing. This has me thinking about what I do want to do with my time, not only on a moment-to-moment basis, but also in terms of the larger things I want to do with my life and the kind of person I want to be.

Coincidentally, I recently stumbled upon 2dobeforeidie.com, a site encouraging people to make lists of 100 things they’d like to do before they die. It’s not a new idea, certainly there are many “inspirational” stories about people making this kind of conscious decision to do something fun or interesting in their life and then going to incredible lengths to make it happen, but it is one that appeals to me. I’m trying to make a list, but coming up with 100 things is hard. It means thinking in both very narrow and very broad scopes about what I want out of life, but it’s still a small enough number that I think I’m going to have to make some hard decisions as to what makes the list and what doesn’t.

I’m far from done, but here are some samples:

Take a road trip with no time constraints or monetary limitations
Find my soulmate
Get a book of poetry published
Eat pasta in Italy
Watch the sun set over the Pacific
Watch the sun set over the Atlantic
Learn to keep things clean
Document my family history
Develop a coherent political philosophy
Develop a coherent spiritual philosophy
Watch the sun rise over the Atlantic
Watch the sun rise over the Pacific

Eventually I’m going to add another page with the complete list, and update it as I complete things. I’d also love to hear about what other people would put on their lists.

Kevinus is the best

spam poetry generator

A few months ago, I started noticing that a lot of the spam I received contained seemingly random words at the bottom, in wonderful combinations like, “feverish interruption symphonic assyria headway argentina whom bragging rendezvous effusion peking bernardo california ellison”. I got excited — these were free words being sent to me every day.

Inspired by Jonathan Schwanbeck, I asked Kevin Gaughen if he would be able to help me at some point create a perl script that could take these spam words, insert random prepositions, conjunctions, etc., and random line breaks to create “poetry”. He said he could and told me what I could do to get started on it, but I kept pushing it off until I have more free time. A few days ago, he surprised me with the page I’ve linked above. Below is an example of poetry it created, based on the sample words in this post.

she
headway
effusion rendezvous
bragging
but

peking. or
interruption
symphonic california bernardo in front of
whom; argentina

Freedom of Speech

Tonight, my aunt found a wadded up piece of notebook paper in my grandmother’s driveway. It read as follows:

GIVE ME A BREAK!

Just for the record, the freedom of speech of every United States citizen is protected an [sic] ensured by the First Amendment of the United States Constitution. I think it is completely disgusting that the FCC, a government group that consists of appointed not elected people, can analyze, judge, and pick and choose what someone can say and hear on the radio and TV.

I have in my car still my sign from Bush’s visit that reads “America is a Free Speech Zone”, in the backseat in such a way that it is easily readable from the outside. It makes me wonder if someone threw the note in response to the sign, or if it was just a random discard. I would like to know who wrote it, as I completely agree with the the (albeit brief) statement made. Earlier in the afternoon I learned of a connection I have to a woman who does handwriting analysis — I’d ask her to look at it if it weren’t written in all caps…

Blurring the line between fantasy & reality

I generally consider posting quiz results to a blog to be boring, but, in this case, I’m going to make an exception. The quiz gains validity by recognizing that I am an elf. I’m not sure how I feel about the class, but I guess it’s hard to fit into any of the possibilities. I’d like to be a mage, though.

http://twinrose.net/dandchar.php

You Are A:

Neutral Good Elf Bard

Alignment:
Neutral Good characters believe in the power of good above all else. They will work to make the world a better place, and will do whatever is necessary to bring that about, whether it goes for or against whatever is considered ‘normal’.

Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.

Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.

Secondary Class:

Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Law and Chaos:
Law —– X (1)
Neutral – XXXXXXXX (8)
Chaos — XXXXXXX (7)

Good and Evil:
Good —- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Neutral – XXXXXX (6)
Evil —- (-4)

Race:
Human —- XXXX (4)
Half-Elf – XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (16)
Elf —— XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (22)
Gnome —- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Halfling – XXXX (4)
Dwarf —- (0)
Half-Orc – XX (2)

Class:
Fighter — XXXXX (5)
Barbarian -XXXXXX (6)
Ranger — XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Monk —– XXXXXXX (7)
Paladin — XXXX (4)
Cleric — XXX (3)
Mage —– XXX (3)
Druid —- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Thief —- (-8)
Bard —– XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)

Mindsets

Beloit College’s Class of 2002 ‘Mindset List’

There’s been a lot of talk about this year’s Mindset List, so I went back and checked the list for the year I would have graduated from college, had I not, well, not graduated from college. I think I might relate to more of the items on this year’s list than I did on that one…

1.The people starting college this fall across the nation were born in 1980.
-I was born in 1981.

2.They have no meaningful recollection of the Reagan era, and did not know he had ever been shot.
-I do remember Reagan, but only because a friend’s mother had a “Ronald Reagan Doormat” dish towel, and I remember being astonished that anyone would think ill of a PRESIDENT.

3.They were prepubescent when the Persian Gulf War was waged.
-This is true.

4.Black Monday 1987 is as significant to them as the Great Depression.
-This is less than true, but not false.

5.There has only been one Pope. They can only remember one other president.
-First part is true, but as stated above, I remember Reagan and the first Bush.

6.They were 11 when the Soviet Union broke apart, and do not remember the Cold War.
-I very much remember the cold war, and remember the Berlin Wall coming down.

7.They have never feared a nuclear war. ‘The Day After’ is a pill to them — not a movie.
-I remember fearing nuclear war. I have never seen ‘The Day After’ but ‘Amazing Grace & Chuck’ was one of my favorite movies.

8.They are too young to remember the Space Shuttle Challenger blowing up.
-I don’t have a clear memory of it, but I do remember being told about it.

9.Their lifetime has always included AIDS.
-This is true

10.They never had a polio shot, and likely, do not know what it is.
-I have never had a polio shot, but I definitely knew what it was by the time I entered college. I think I have memories of one of the teachers at school showing us her scar. I must have been 7 or 8.

11.Bottle caps have not always been screw off, but have always been plastic. They have no idea what a pull top can looks like.
-Bottle caps have always been screw off, unless we’re talking about beer, in which case they aren’t plastic. I can think of several things that might be called a pull top can, I’m not sure which is actually called a pull top can.

12.Atari pre-dates them, as do vinyl albums.
-This is true.

13.The expression ‘you sound like a broken record’ means nothing to them.
-I think everyone knows what this means.

14.They have never owned a record player.
-This is true, but I do remember my parents owning one, and I had a BLAST when I was little playing their old records.

15.They have likely never played Pac Man, and have never heard of ‘Pong.’
-Please.

16.Star Wars looks very fake to them, and the special effects are pathetic.
-This is true now, but hasn’t always been.

17.There have always been red M&M’s, and blue ones are not new. What do you mean there used to be beige ones?
-I did think there had always been red M&M’s, but blue replaced beige while I was in high school.

18.They may never have heard of an 8-track, and chances are they’ve never heard or seen one.
-My family had an 8-track player. I’m not sure I ever used it.

19.The compact disc was introduced when they were one year old.
-I remember when the standard was tapes, though.

20.As far as they know, stamps have always cost about 32 cents.
-No way. I remember low 20s.

21.They have always had an answering machine.
-When I was little, we had an answering machine in my father’s office (he was self-employed and worked at home), but didn’t get one for the residential line until much later.

22.Most have never seen a TV set with only 13 channels, nor have they seen a black & white TV.
-I grew up with a TV set with only 13 channels, only 5 of which were programmed (as they were the only 5 we got). I have seen a black & white TV, but have never owned one.

23.They have always had cable.
-I didn’t get cable until after I entered college.

24.There have always been VCR’s, but they have no idea what Beta is.
-I remember pre-VCR, but didn’t learn what Beta was until after I entered college.

25. They cannot fathom what it was like not having a remote control.
-We had no remote control for most of my childhood.

26. They were born the year Walkmen were introduced by Sony.
-I remember people being hugely excited by the idea, not much else.

27. Roller-skating has always meant in-line for them.
-Still doesn’t.

28. “The Tonight Show” has always been with Jay Leno.
-Nope, although I doubt I ever saw it with Johnny Carson.

29. They have no idea when or why Jordache jeans were cool.
-I remember them being VERY cool, I have no idea why.

30. Popcorn has always been cooked in the microwave.
-No way.

31. They have never seen Larry Bird play, and Kareem Abdul-Jabbar is a football player.
-I was in Boston the day Larry Bird announced his retirement, and Kareem Abdul-Jabbar is most definitely a basketball player.

32. They never took a swim and thought about Jaws.
-That’s true.

33. The Vietnam War is as ancient history to them as WWI and WWII or even the Civil War.
-Not true for any of us, probably. Our fathers were either in the war or have a story about why they weren’t.

34. They have no idea that Americans were ever held hostage in Iran.
-I may not have known this when I entered collge.

35. They can’t imagine what hard contact lenses are.
-Not true.

36. They don’t know who Mork was, or where he was from.
-Ork.

37. They never heard the terms “Where’s the Beef?”, “I’d walk a mile for a Camel” or “De plane, de plane!”
-I know the first one, never heard the latter two.

38. They do not care who shot J.R. and have no idea who J.R. is.
-This sounds really familiar, but is true.

39. The Titanic was found? I thought we always knew where it was.
-I knew we didn’t always know where it was, I don’t remember that time.

40. Michael Jackson has always been white.
-He’s always been a freak, I would not say he’s always been white.

41. Kansas, Boston, Chicago, America, and Alabama are all places — not music groups.
-They’re both.

42. McDonalds never came in Styrofoam containers.
-Don’t the Big Breakfasts still come in styrofoam containers? Or are they plastic now?

43. There has always been MTV, and it has always included non-musical shows.
-I never knew what was on MTV since I never had cable.

Organized Chaos

The Word Spy – flash mob

Not only is The Word Spy a cool site, but I am becoming obsessed with the idea of flash mobs. I want one. I want lots of them.

I’m not usually a fan of performance art or surrealism, but this strikes me as brilliant on several levels. It would be, I think, a fantastic exercise in information dissemination to get everyone to meet, a unifying experience in an increasingly disjointed world, and simply a spectacle to have that many anonymous and random people coming together all at once.

My mind is churning for ways to best organize one. If you have ideas, email me.