Blurring the line between fantasy & reality

I generally consider posting quiz results to a blog to be boring, but, in this case, I’m going to make an exception. The quiz gains validity by recognizing that I am an elf. I’m not sure how I feel about the class, but I guess it’s hard to fit into any of the possibilities. I’d like to be a mage, though.

http://twinrose.net/dandchar.php

You Are A:

Neutral Good Elf Bard

Alignment:
Neutral Good characters believe in the power of good above all else. They will work to make the world a better place, and will do whatever is necessary to bring that about, whether it goes for or against whatever is considered ‘normal’.

Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.

Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.

Secondary Class:

Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Law and Chaos:
Law —– X (1)
Neutral – XXXXXXXX (8)
Chaos — XXXXXXX (7)

Good and Evil:
Good —- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Neutral – XXXXXX (6)
Evil —- (-4)

Race:
Human —- XXXX (4)
Half-Elf – XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (16)
Elf —— XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (22)
Gnome —- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Halfling – XXXX (4)
Dwarf —- (0)
Half-Orc – XX (2)

Class:
Fighter — XXXXX (5)
Barbarian -XXXXXX (6)
Ranger — XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Monk —– XXXXXXX (7)
Paladin — XXXX (4)
Cleric — XXX (3)
Mage —– XXX (3)
Druid —- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Thief —- (-8)
Bard —– XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)

Erie Sunset

I wanted to write something exciting over my three day weekend, but as I was sitting at a tiny table in a huge Eat ‘N Park in Erie trying to get something down, I was interrupted by a midget and it threw me off my groove.

Perhaps I should back up. Since I realized two weeks ago that I was going to have a three day weekend followed by an eight day work week, I’d been thinking about taking a road trip. After careful consideration of all the factors (I wanted water, Pennsylvania in the fall, and a sunset), I decided that Erie would be the perfect destination. I’d never been to that part of the state — the closest I’d ever come was I-80 on the way to California — and it seemed like the best way to see the sun set over the water, rare as it is on the East Coast to find beaches facing west. When I remembered thinking as I was on I-80 on the last day of September 2000 that the hills would be gorgeous just a few weeks later, I was sold. Wunderground.com told me that Erie’s Sunday sunset would be occurring at 6:32 PM, so I left Harrisburg shortly after 1 PM.

The drive was as breathtaking as I hoped it would be, reaffirming my belief that I live in one of the most beautiful places on earth. I was tempted many times to stop to take pictures, but I knew I needed to hurry if I wanted to make it in time for the sunset. I was worried I wasn’t going to make it until I got onto I-79 at 5:00 and saw a sign for Erie in 60 miles, at which point I knew the timing was perfect. When I got to Erie, though, I actually had a hard time finding a beach that faced west. Kevin had told me to find the peninsula park, but he couldn’t remember the name of it. After some sunset chasing through the city, which, incidentally, was phenomenally ugly despite a few interesting looking old industrial buildings, I finally found Peninsula Drive and a sign for Presque Isle State Park.

The sunset was as beautiful as the city was ugly. I sat in the sand to watch the sun turning gray clouds luscious shades of peach before melting them to molten streams of red lava sparkling across the dark water. I stayed for over an hour, until the last traces of light slipped away and I bid the lake good night. So impressed was I with Kevin’s advice that I decided to follow his second Erie-tourist tip and move on to the local Eat ‘N Park.

The local Eat ‘N Park, though huge and new, was not nearly as impressive as the park. It took nearly 15 minutes for my waitress to notice me and her service was grudging at best for the duration of my meal. After finishing my chicken alfredo and pumpkin pie, I considered leaving then, to write in a motel room rather than at the restaurant as I’d originally intended, but decided instead to stay. Just a few minutes later, one of the classic comedic combinations entered and was seated directly across the aisle from me. A tall, lanky boy of about 19 or 20 appeared first, his goofy smile revealing not only a shockingly average IQ but also a set of cuspids and bicuspids that protruded over his lower lip on both sides of his mouth. Immediately behind him — a midget.

It took me only a brief period to recover from the initial shock and return to my writing, but I continued to listen to their conversation out of the corner of my ear. It was striking only in its lack of interesting topics — these were normal young men, stuck in that awkward stage where they want badly to be adults and to establish their independence but still lacking the maturity and wisdom to do it. They spoke of girls and keggers, cars and the possibility of joining the military. Just as I was getting bored, my thoughts returning completely to my attempt to describe the gulls perched on the series of perfectly uniform man-made rock formations that evenly line the shores of the lake, I was interrupted by a familiar admonishment.

“Smile!”

I must have a tendency to scowl while deep in thought because strangers in diners often use this as an opening line when I least want to be distracted. But when a midget tells you to smile, it’s awfully hard not to. This started a conversation, no more interesting than their prior dialogue, but enough to keep me there for another hour.

The more I travel, the more convinced I am that people are ultimately the same everywhere and although this can be slightly discouraging, I enjoy seeing the humanity beneath the constructs we create. These boys were no different, trying hard to be the people they thought they should be, but looking like they miss more often than not.

I left Eat ‘N Park underwhelmed but satisfied and took 322 through the clear and crisp night, Simon & Garfunkel’s version of humanity filling my ears the whole ride home.

There he stands behind the register

I was in love with the McDonald’s boy. This was not a Barenaked Ladies-esque infatuation with his innocent smile and I had no delusions that he was an angel in a polyester uniform, but I was in love.

I’ve gone to McDonald’s every morning before work for the last 3 weeks for a number 10 — a Sausage, Egg, & Cheese McGriddle Extra Value Meal with a small Coke. I think about the McDonald’s boy as I pull into the drive-thru line, my window down in eager anticipation of his voice crackling through the speaker. I crane my neck as I pull around the side of the building, straining for a glimpse of him through his smudged glass cage. He is not an attractive man, and really, is just barely a man. He isn’t ugly, though, and he operates with such a clean efficiency that I start to think I could sit and watch him work all day. I admire his ability to multi-task, taking orders and collecting money, handing out change while he confirms the next customer’s number three Extra Value Meal. I love the way he hands me my change with two hands, one cupped gently under mine to make sure I don’t drop anything while the other firmly presses the bills into my hand. I love that, this morning, when I placed my regular order but did not specify the size of the drink, he knew it was me and verified that I was getting a medium rather than my usual small. I thought maybe he loved me back.

While I normally leave thoughts of my love under the golden arches as I drive away, secure in the knowledge that he will be waiting for me the next day, on this cold morning I allowed them to warm me for the rest of the drive to work. I thought about what exactly it was that had captured my fancy, about what I could write about him to do him justice. I raced down the concrete stairs of the parking lot into my waiting cubicle and unpacked my white bag. Inside, I found not my usual McGriddle, but a Steak, Egg, & Cheese Bagel sandwich. Frantic to excuse my McDonald’s boy, I searched for the receipt, hoping I’d been given the wrong order, that somewhere, someone else had my food, that it was not his mistake but the mistake of the sullen girl at the second window. But no, there was the receipt with the “#7 Steak Bagel EVM” totaling the exact amount I’d paid.

The heartbreak was audible. I sat, stunned, staring at the faded purple ink, my mind racing to find some excuse for him. None came. Outside it is gray and bitter, cold winds littering fallen brown leaves across the ground and bringing tears to my eyes with their sting. Inside, it is much the same.

If you don’t have something nice to say…

Like most grandmothers, mine frowns on swearing. Every now and then one of her children will slip some vulgarity into the dinner conversation, sometimes just as an oversight, but often to see their mother’s reaction. The most classic, which lies somewhere between the two motivations, is a spill followed by an oath, then punctuated by an admonition so immediate and instinctual it can only come from a matriarch who has spent many years reprimanding her bright and mischievous six children. The sound goes something like this:

[crash]-shitJon!

Over a recent family dinner, though, my eldest aunt, in casual conversation, used a particular word referring to a human waste product, and did not receive the usual scolding. There was a brief pause as we all felt that something was not quite right, but were unable to identify exactly what it was.

“Mother has announced,” my aunt began, “that ‘shit’ is not a bad word because it’s not used to curse people. The only bad words are those used to curse people, like damn.” We raucously pondered this for several minutes, trying out different conversational uses, feeling the holes in her theory. Overall, though, this seemed like a good hypothesis — words are not bad in and of themselves, directing ill will at another person is. As the laughter died down, we realized that we needed proof. We needed to hear her say it. The racket to cheers of encouragement, then faded into a brief hush of anticipation as we all turned to her, fervent to hear her utter this one word.

And she did. It was fast and soft, slipping from her lips quickly. Her aging voice, though often laced with traces of a Long Island left forty years earlier, was now sweet with forbidden whimsy. As her audience roared with applause and laughter, she blushed a soft shade of pink below her brilliant white hair and dancing eyes.

We tried in vain to get her to expand her new vocabulary, preferably to include a word referring to copulation, but she was done. She’d demonstrated her belief in her theory, though, and that was enough. The proclamation had come down from our esteemed matriarch — use whatever words you choose, but choose them kindly.

There need to be more grandmothers like mine.

Work

I got the job!

They offered it to me yesterday and, of course, I accepted. I’ll still be in Customer Service for the next two weeks, and working a few hours in the evenings learning the new job. I spent all day today in “training”, learning some of the basic job functions. The group of people I’m going to be working with seems like a lot of fun and the vibe I got today was very professional but very laid back and fun. Everyone was joking around but they were serious about getting their stuff done and they all seemed highly driven and competent. I’m really looking forward to being down there full time. I’m also looking forward to working with my new boss. I’ve heard a lot of things about him, but what’s interesting to me is that nearly everyone has the same assessment of him, but some people really like him while others really dislike him. His perfectionism is the first thing most people mention, which works well for me because I’m also a perfectionist and I get frustrated when people around me are sloppy or inattentive. From talking to him, he seems like he’s got a lot of drive and he seems like he genuinely wants the best for and from his employees. I hope that I can live up to his expectations, but I’m not nervous because I think he’s the kind of manager that will make me want to work as hard as I can for him.

It feels really good to be excited about work again.